In a relationship, I have to be in power. My man has to think of me as a goddess, a perfect angel. I need to be in control and I want him to treat me like I’m the best he’s ever had and the best he’ll ever get. I need him to tremble when I kiss him. I need him to be turned on by a simple look from me. But god damn it if he’s going to fuck me, he better strip me of all that power and show me that I belong to him.

Just watched a couple kiss goodbye before they went their separate ways to class and I don’t think I’ve ever been so jealous and lonely in my life.

Why can’t I find someone to give all of my love and affection and attention to?!?! fgdiagfcuhadskbackjscbak

just kind of sad tonight.

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I’m not here for you to use. No, you cannot touch me anywhere anytime you want. No, I’m not going to fuck you every time we hang out. And you’re not allowed to be mean to me when you realize you’re not getting any.

So fuck you and let’s see how you like it when you notice that you’re losing me.

How is it that I always fall for the one that doesn’t want me?

I’m sorry that I didn’t fall in love with you, but yelling at me through text messages isn’t going to change anything at all.

I have a decision to make.

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do I want my ex boyfriend back?

ugh it’s been two years since shit went down but I’ve never been so happy as I was when I was his.

What the hell is this hold you have on me? It’s so foreign to me to be wrapped so tightly around someones finger.

Last night I dreamt about you. Which is weird  because it’s been so long since I’ve thought of you. I kept going to your house, we were happy. But you kept doing things that made me feel like you didn’t want me there so every time I was there, I ended up storming out. I came back crying and screaming at you “why don’t you care about me?” You replied with “I don’t give a shit about you.” I woke up wondering if things would be different now if in reality you had fought for me at all, showed me that you cared.

Trying to date me is like trying to keep a wild animal as a pet. I’m fun to look at and play with for awhile, but at some point I’m going to hurt you and you’re going to have to let me go.

If only you gave a shit.

A couple days ago, I told my crush that I ran out of the pills I take for anemia so I don’t feel like complete shit all the time. He bought them for me. Holy shit what a sweetheart. <33333333